I know this is crazy but when I see or hear about the kids in my class during the 2010-2011 school year I have this weird empty feeling like I forgot something important. I have always had this physical response to unfinished business which kindly keeps me from procrastinating but in this situation it is frustrating.
I was going through photos and came upon one of the Halloween party with my class. Seeing their faces left me longing to have seen the empty spaces where teeth should have been and longing to better know the cute little personalities that I expected to spend a year with. It reminded me of the journey of reading, math and writing that I didn’t get to guide them on. The fun new art projects I had planned still sitting in the cue waiting completion. The fun songs that we would sing ring in my mind, and my heart aches a little bit.
I love what I am doing and I am content. I know I was and I am exactly where I should be, but I still think of each of those sweet kids and I feel kind of robbed.
Crazy I know.