Life as a TBI survivor is interesting. On the inside you feel normal, but on the outside people see you doing things that aren't quite average. This effects every aspect of life for a TBI survivor. After dealing with a brain injury for years, sometimes I just want it to go away. But it can't. And it sticks its fingers in every part of my life. My work is affected, my spirituality is affected, my relationships are affected. Everything! You would think after six years I'd be used to it by now, but the truth is I don't think I'll ever be quite used to it.
Because of my brain injury, disappointments are bigger, love runs deeper, and anger burns hotter. This means that when my hours are cut at work, I'm devastated. But it also means that when I publish my first story for others to read, the excited is larger than life and lasts a long time. My emotions are just bigger. That's the truth. Sometimes it isn't very fun, but other times its worth it. Like when I'm angry at my boyfriend for taking me on a really hard hike so I swear at him. That's not so fun. But when we get to the top of the hike, and he asks me to marry him, and I wear a smile that could light up Las Vegas for months. That's worth it.
Anyway, I thought I would give you all a little update. I know I haven't been good about posting, but that's going to change.
And yes, you read that right, I published my first story through Kindle Direct Publishing. It's called Since the Turn of a Page. (I use a pen name so it won't be under Maddi or Maddison or with the last name Sanders)