When I was in that place I felt happy and loved. It was filled with family and people who love me. Jesus and Heavenly Father were there and they love us! It isn't in the clouds like people think. When I was there it was like being in two places at once. I would be hovering over my body but surrounded by my ancestors. I was there with my body at the hospital but I was in Heaven too. I don't know how it works but that is just the way it was for me.
The ancestor that stayed with me the most was Grandma Beth Prince. My mom's maternal grandmother for those who don't know who I am talking about. I call her my guardian angel but she didn't have wings. When I saw her she was tall, not hunched over, and she was healthy and beautiful. She wasn't old but not exactly young either. It was a wonderful sight to see! I felt loved when I was with her.
- She told me that she wanted me to get better and that she wanted me to have a happy life.
- She told me she loved me and that a lot of people on earth love me too.
- She said she wished she could have known me on earth.
- She told me that I was very, very blessed.
I feel close to Grandma Beth now even though I never knew her on earth. I still love her and I am glad she watched over me. Thank you Grandma Beth!
Daisy, Dorothy and Margaret also visited me for short times. They must have had other people to take care of but that is OK. I love them too and they were beautiful! I don't know which Great Grandmother I know and love the best but I love them all. They all wanted me to get better and they said that they loved me. They all said that I needed to go back to my family and I understand why.
I didn't want to come back because I couldn't move or talk and I felt really loved. It was a different love than here. I tell you this Jesus is the best hugger in the world and he loves us all. When I was with Jesus, it was the best feeling in the world. It wasn't that I just felt loved but it felt like LOVE. I can't explain the difference but I know it's there. It was like every cell in my body believed in him and that he loved me. Why wouldn't my body want to believe? It is true!
Jesus told me:
- That I needed to go back to my family because it was not my time.
- He loves me.
- The Gospel is true.
- My family loves me.
- It takes FAITH to live.
- He wanted me to succeed and I believe he still does.
- He wanted me HOME but it was not my time at all.
- He told me that I have a job to do but he didn't tell me what it was.
When I had to say good-bye to Grandma Beth and the other family members it was like that feeling was coming to an end. I didn't want to forget that feeling. It felt like happiness and love. I still remember the feeling, that is where hugs came from. Hugs here don't compare but they are close enough. I went through a sad stage when the ancestors left because I didn't want them to leave. It was the same feeling I have when Maryanne and Katelyn leave every summer.
After having this experience I want to help people understand the gospel and for them to have hope! I want to help people feel loved here like I did there. It makes me want to go on a mission to share the gospel and the love that I felt. I am trying to figure out how to do something small everyday to help people feel loved and not just wait to serve a mission.
If you are feeling bad don't worry; The Church is true, Heavenly Father and Jesus love us. Our families love us even if they have past on and everything happens for a reason.